MAZOHYST OF DECADENCE



Mazohyst оf Decadence

umiotosareru kodomo tsumi no ishiki no nai otona otosare
namae mo nai boku naze koko ni iru no ka sae wakaranai keredo
tatta suukagetsu no inochi tomo shirazu

boku wa aisaretai boku wa umaretai kono botai no naka mitsumete
boku ga ishiki wo matta toki kara nikagetsu me nani ka ga hayai to kanjita
mada nani mo dekinai sono uchi PURAGU ga

fukanzen na boku wa kakiotosareta itami ga karada wo tsukinukeru
haha no nakisakebu koe miminari ga tomaranai
hakui no otona-tachi boku wo sukui ageta
reiketsu ni michiafureta hitomi ni chimamire no migite no nai boku ga utsuru
sono mama kuroi BINIIRU ni tsutsumareta

dandan ishiki ga utsureru naka boku wa kangaeru shizuka ni
Cage no boku wo kono mama aiseru nara sore de ii yurusezu

aisarenai boku wa kono mama shinda hou ga ii
dakara ubugoe wo agezu shizuka ni nemuri mashou
ichido dake haha no ai kono te de kanjite mitai
kore ga ai na no kamoshirenai arigatou
nidoto hirakanai tobira kataku shimerareteita
demo ne boku wa kitto mirai no kimi dakara
RARARA

"Hontou ni kore de iin desu ne?"
"HAI."
"Anata wa nannin me desu ka?"
"Hitori me desu."
"Boku wa kazoekirenai kodomo wo koroshiteimasu...anata wa yurusemasu ka?"
"..."
"Mou ichido kikimasu...hontou ni kore de iin desu ne?"
"HAI."
"Yoi wa ii desu ka?"
"HAI"
"De wa hajimemashou."

karada yakitsukusare hone ga naku naru made yakitsukusu
sayonara

(hahahahahahahahaha...)

Mazohyst оf Decadence

Child that will be born adults with no sense of guilt fallen...this nameless I, why am I here? I don't even understand but...I don't know that I only have a few months to live...

I want to love, I want to be born, staring at the inside of this mother's body, staring since the time I waited for consciousness two months on I sensed something fast yet I could do nothing that cord of ours will be...

I, incomplete, my body pierced through with hooked pain...mother's screaming voice, ringing in my ears, will not cease white coated adults scooped me up in eyes overflowing with coldheartedness bloody without a right hand I am reflected just as I was...in black vinyl I am wrapped...engulfed while my consciousness is gradually fading, I consider quietly if I, caged, am loved as I am, that is good it cannot be forgiven

it's better that I, unlovable, died as I am...in quiet I shall sleep without giving my first cry...just once, I want to feel a mother's love...maybe this is love, thank you...a door that never opens was closing tight
but I am surely your future, and so...la la la

"is it really okay?"
"yes"
"is this your first time?"
"yes, it's my first"
"I have killed countless children...can you forgive me?"
"..."
"I ask one more time...is it really okay?"
"yes"
"are you ready?"
"yes"
"well then, let's begin"

my body burned, consumed until my bones become nothing burned, destroyed
goodbye

(hahahahahahahahaha...)

Lyric: Kyo
Music: Kaoru

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